Tuesday, April 20, 2010
It has been almost a year since I have posted here. I have toyed with the idea of a few other blogs, but I am always thinking of things that fit here. Today, I am inspired to write again because for the past two months I have experienced freedom. I left my big law firm job on February 12 and I have not looked back for one single minute. I knew I felt trapped. I knew I hated billable hours and I knew that I was completely over the political crap, but I really had no idea just how stifled and just how miserable I truly was. Let me make a disclaimer here - I really like almost all of the people I worked with at my firm. They are great lawyers and more importantly, great people. I even liked the work - at least 50% of the time. And I was pretty good at it. But the environment, for me, was just toxic. I have told several people, since starting my new job, that I feel like I left an abusive relationship. First, I had convinced myself that, if I was paid a certain salary, the tradoff was that I had to be miserable. It was just a fact of life that came with the paycheck. I now know that's not true. I took a very small pay cut for my current job and I am not miserable. In fact, I really, really like the job. That doesn't mean it isn't hard or stressful or that I don't work a lot, but I like it. I feel respected and valued and even if had taken a large pay decrease, that would be worth it. Second, I have been in the job for two months and in the past few days, I have just stopped walking around on eggshells waiting for something bad to happen - waiting to discover what I hate, what is going to make me miserable. And I don't think it's there. Again, it's not perfect, because no job is, but it's just so very, very different. I feel free.
Posted by stephanie at 10:17 PM